When 3 months seem like 90 days

Because you feel like you’ve been in a place for so long that you don’t remember the time before, but when you actually count it’s just been a few months.

That’s how I feel now. I’ve been in this cityย for 3 short months, but I feel like I’ve always been part of it.

With the move happening very quickly and being bogged down by work, it’s feels like centuries since I saw any other place.

Have you ever felt that way?

Being new to some city or place but feeling as if you’ve been there for so long that you don’t remember what it felt like when you first moved?

For me, I had no uncertainty while moving here, maybe because I had been many times here – either to meet family, or to visit, or passing by…

I wouldn’t say I felt like I was coming home, but I didn’t feel anxious. I know there are always worries while you move into a new place. Especially in India, you have to think about the language, the culture, the people – it’s all a big change.

But somehow, it was ok… the only thing is I need to find new friends…but this city seems to be such a lonely place. It’s where everyone has only work friends, and you can’t seem to just make friends apart from your workplace. And that sucks a lot!

Unless your old friends also happen to move into the same city – which is a rare event, and even if they do, you’re separated by schedules, terrible traffic and other things that just make it difficult to meet up.

I remember travelling 2 hours each way in heavy traffic just to meet my friend for a 2 hour movie! Hah!

But it was good…yes. However, it doesn’t change the fact that this city is very lonely. I know that all those who are here have moved just because of their jobs – 100% sure.

So it makes it very lonely in the weekends, because you don’t have work and you don’t have friends, even if you do have friends you can’t meet them every week or you are so burnt out from work that you end up staying in. Whatever it is, it doesn’t change my perception of this city.

It’s such a happening place, with concerts, events, comedy shows etc but still if you go out and take a walk – you feel something creep into you.

I don’t know how to explain and I think only photos can say it all.

One day…one day I want to go out and capture this city and it’s beautiful loneliness through my lens…maybe then…I can make others understand what I meant…

For now, happy weekend! ๐Ÿ™‚

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Getting it right

So what am I trying to get it right?

Work, Time, Life in general.

I thought I would be the type of person who would instinctively know how time management is done. Wrong!

I should have known myself more than others. When I told myself I wouldn’t get bogged down in work, I thought I was serious. Nopes. Didn’t happen that way.

I don’t know how I manage to drag myself home everyday.

I see my colleagues oh-so-casually come late, leave early and actually have time for shopping and other social activities. For me it’s all been a blur.

I go to work early – coz I found that the office is empty in the mornings and can do a lot in that time; I try to leave work by 6PM because I don’t want to be a workaholic. But that’s really not me! I’m a workaholic and to be honest I’m not that proud of it.

I’m always having some deadline, some deliverable, some meeting, some discussion pending – and I frankly drive myself crazy because I can’t sleep thinking of work and can’t work thinking of sleep!!!

One weekend, instead of going out I thought I’d relax and enjoy at home. I ended up feeling bored and turning to work for a change of scenery!!! :-O

Suddenly, I realized that this is exactly how I said I’d never be. I needed something other than work!

I decided that I needed a life…a hobby! And so I enrolled in a Tennis Class, thinking I could vent all my frustrations by whacking the ball.

Heh…in my first class, I swung the racket as per the coach’s instructions and swiftly made him lose 2 tennis balls to the distant wilderness! I felt so bad taking out all my strength and slamming the ball so far he couldn’t even retrieve it.

But hey, that day my mind had cleared up a bit. I was feeling lost before, but I felt I could deal with things.

But today, when my whole body aches and all my muscles are screaming, I think twice ๐Ÿ˜›

Well…it’s gonna be worth it. Some pain is okay when you’re trying to get things right. ๐Ÿ™‚

Have a great month ahead! ๐Ÿ™‚ โค